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杨逢时:相聚在永恒的春季——“天安门六四”三十周年纪念音乐会感言(图、视频)

June 21, 2019

父亲在2011年圣诞之夜于上海离世的时候﹐我们已有十八年没有相见了。他曾在电话里对我说﹕“女儿啊﹐我来日不多了﹐你就改变一下政治观点吧!这样你就可以回来看我了。你是我最小的女儿﹐你知道我有多想你啊!”父亲的话像刀一样深深刺痛了我的心。难道我不思念他吗?难道我不想见他吗﹖是父亲把我带进了古典音乐的圣殿。他是我的第一个音乐老师﹐在我还很小的时候就开始教我音乐理论﹑作曲和钢琴。而令我格外心痛的是,原来父亲太懂得这个专制政权﹐即﹐如果你不改变政治立场﹐你就不可能安全地回故乡。可是﹐我反复地对自己说﹐原谅我﹐爸爸!我不能改变我的理念。正因为我是那样热爱生我的那片古老的土地和世代苦难的同胞﹐正因为我对你的爱﹐我不能改变。如果像我这样的人都抛弃原则﹐向专制杀人政权低头﹐那么,中国作为一个国家就永远不会改变﹐生活在那片土地上的人民和他们的孩子们就永远不能享受自由。

两年前﹐我收到了叔叔的一封信﹐信中附有父亲遗留的一页音乐创作的手稿﹐这便成了我仅有的能寄托我对父亲哀思的珍贵物件,也是“永恒的春季”的创作灵感的源泉。这首作品采用了拱形结构﹐在作品的开始与结尾﹐你们将听到父亲的曲调在钢琴上远远地传来。作品的中段是以父亲的另一个曲调在弦乐上展开。这首乐曲是我的纪念与缅怀﹐是我的期待与信念。

“六四”给中国留下了不可愈合的伤痕﹐也给千万个家庭造成了永久的悲剧。我所经历的伤痛﹐正是无数个家庭悲剧中的一幕。在纪念“六四”三十周年的今天﹐我要把此曲献给为自由中国捐躯的先烈﹐献给为正义与自由而付出了个人代价的志士仁人﹐献给那些在三十年前经历了丧子丧夫之痛的“天安门母亲”。让我们祈祷祝福——在人间﹐在天国﹐或重洋远渡﹐或日月相隔﹐愿所有被迫分离的破碎的心终将重逢在自由天空下的永恒的春季。

 

【附】“永恒的春季”(杨逢时词曲)

仰望苍天我在寻你﹐
走近大海我在唤你。
那风吹的云﹐那水照的影﹐
只留下你孤独的歌伴随着我破碎的心。

仰望苍天我在寻你﹐
走近大海我在唤你。
冷酷的严冬﹐悲情的分离﹐
但我们终将会相聚在永恒的春季。

 

 

6/2/2019
作者投稿

——转自CND刊物和论坛(2019-06-12)

中国人权双周刊》第264期,2019年6月21日—2019年7月4日

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